Acceptance

Accepting me as who i am.my inperfection.my flaws.Accepting me for who i am .Its hard when i have to live with something to hide.Looking normal on the outside but  not on the inside.Hiding the things im afraid that people would see . Hiding the other side of me. The real side of me . An inperfection too hideous to be discovered. A secret i wont reveal to anyone other than my family. I hate it when people think i am as who i appear to be. Because im not . I just wish i could tell you,but i cant. At times its hard for me to accept me for who i am,hence, i dont expect others to accept my true self as well.Acceptance.Acceptance of the people who did you wrong.Acceptance of the people who cause me to turn out this way.I really wish i could bash you up,and throw you down from the elleventh floor.Can i?Should i?Why me?Arent we related by blood?Why must you hate my family so much?I let it go when you make my parents suffer,but did you have to make me suffer the pain as well?I tought i was your favourite,the special treatments u gave me.But its all humbug.An act to cover up all your doings.I definitely wont forget the pain i had to endure for nearly a year.Pain that is beyond description.I had to deal with so much pain everyday,thinking it was my health thats failing me.Watching how my body damaged itself everyday and the tears that i cried.READ THIS BITCH,I WONT FORGIVE YOU!